It's the third day that Faust has left me all alone during the night in his laboratory, yesterday I worked to make more sedatives and I'm not sure if those two are being responsible about this. I wonder if they know that they could kill her if they just slip a little bit more of this in her food? But that's none of my business, I don't care anymore.
Tonight I decided to practice some cartomancy, because my magic skills are getting a little bit rusty. Just some simple three-card spread calling past-present-future for each one of us since I'm not fond of fortune-telling.
Here's Faust's reading. I was expecting for the Hermit to come out, it was so obvious. And I'm glad that he could break free from him since it was reversed, showing that his lone search for truth ended up getting him lost or stuck in his hazy ambitions. It's so good to see him transforming into a Magician! It's a card full of potential and dynamism, a healthy connection and mediation between the divine and terrenal (hand pointing upwards and the other pointing down). But as you see, the final outcome is The Devil, showing the victory of the terrenal, material and physical pleasures and attachments, or it might refer to dependence or subordination. I first though that this had to do with my victory over Faust's soul, but these readings got a little more complex when I did Margaret's spread and then mine, please keep reading.
Here's Margaret's reading. It starts with the World, a card who shows the peace that brings wholeness and completion. I bet she was a girl who was happy and satisfied with the humble, quiet life she had until then. It's a little sad seeing The World transforming into The Lovers card, even worse since it's reversed, because it shows that the wholeness was split into two, and she's no longer happy and whole by just herself. I think that if Faust reciprocated her love properly, the card wouldn't appear upside down, and maybe the happiness would stay, even if it was dependant on two people being together. The spread ended with the Justice card, and I never was good understanding that card- Well it's not that I don't understand it, it's just too ambiguous to talk about it. It means that the consequences of one's deeds are coming, be them good or bad.
There's a little thing that concerns me about Margaret's and Faust spread, see the past reading for Margaret -The World- and the present reading for Faust -The Magician-. They both hold the same baton, The World has two, The Magician holds one. Did The Magician take this baton from The World to use it to connect himself to the divine, messing up with The World's wholeness?
Here's my reading, and it starts in a very familiar way as always. I think The Fool might be a personal archetype of mine. I'm for sure childish, bold, free-spirited, and I don't care for the future at all, I walk gazing at the sky and not my path, I don't let anyone guide me. Then it appears a reversed Death card... meaning that I'm resisting some kind of change. I don't like spreading cards for myself, it scares me a lot because I don't like getting hints to guide me through my life, I don't like to get to know myself even more. But that's nothing, what it's really frightening is that I get The Devil for the future, and I share it with Faust.
After all of this I remembered why I don't like divination. The feeling of having the opportunity to control the outcome of my and other's actions is scary. It's something that gives me too much responsability that I can't handle, it weights too much in my back. I just escape it by choosing to be an ignorant (I sound so bad!). Anyways I don't plan on doing anything about this, I won't think this too much nor talk about Faust about these readings. Wouldn't it be a little rude if someone read your fortune without consent? There's no need for him to know about this (･ω<)☆